心向快乐第一季

This is fucking good😭😭😭第四集之前：I fucking love Mae Martin yet this drama is a little bit normal第四集之后：Fucking awesome plot😭😭😭Mae Martin is super genius😭😭😭

I feel like I'm full of birds.

典型的英式喜剧，好多那种冷笑话哈哈哈哈哈，而且除去主角之外人物有为剧情发展和气氛需要脸谱化的嫌疑。George真的很美美得像戴安娜王妃。Mae Martin…我发现我只是喜欢小奶狗而已性别什么的无所谓，所以我原来是无性恋吗（误）看到做爱部分会感觉都是女孩子的话会让我容易习惯很多很多…可能也是对lesbian群体本身不了解不过我不想管那么多

剧本真的很好很好。感觉能体会到日常人与人之间交往的那种真诚与温暖感觉。情感很细腻，但感觉铺陈有时候不到位，也可能我本人不够敏感。剧里的话还是美化过的现实…首先addict被编进去本身就是对taking drugs的一种美化…cant help doing something while knowing that it will bring some negative consequences hhhh但是很多琐碎的碎片化现实又fucking real and fucking touching，Mae和George最后对话还有以前其他的对话里面那些词不达意欲言又止还有反复的sorry, I just... 都好London好生活…我们都一样啊。

You are being loved. 那里真的眼眶湿润了。not an island... 人与人之间的联系真的是拯救一个人的根本吗。

md这部里面的感情真的都好他妈流畅啊。

就是在考试周看然后看第一集的时候：这能拍六集？看完第六集的时候：怎么只有六集该不会我还要等第二季吧。看到还有第二季的时候：希望我能先紧着复习😭

差点忘了夸导演！色调真的超级超级棒啊，好多镜头都很漂亮，镜头下的人也无比好看。调色和色彩搭配都太好了…视角也很棒。

看看这个镜头多绝美！

我自觉自己也算容易成瘾的人，还低自尊，所以很懂这剧里的痛点。有自知之明所以不敢碰任何赌毒…比起Mae是好在我没有那么狂躁。

我觉得自己对亲密关系成瘾真的是the saddest thing ever heard.

不知道是爱眼前这个人还是单纯需要找个人满足自己的成瘾需求。

更别提找了个直女了，更加煽动自己不安情绪。

听对方说分手之后比起女生会找男生就心里很堵。从理性角度来看，其实这不能代表任何事，并不是说这段感情是“一时兴起”或者“错误”，只是她本身更容易被男性吸引而已。但是听起来就很沮丧。

心中某处总觉得哪天必须要面对自己成瘾这个事情，对现在的感情不能百分百投入。

Life is suck.

Feel Good is a low budget 6-episode TV show which mysteriously skipped my attention when it was first brought up by a friend: probably because it features no big star (Lisa is one, but in a small role), and British TV shows like Fleabag and Killing Eve have raised the bar very high now.

However, one night, I started to watch the first episode and was very impressed. The not so sub plot of addiction is so well-written. I really like it when Mae (its main character shares the same name with the writer and lead actor, which is a bit confusing) expands the definition of ‘addiction’: ‘it’s all the same feelings, craving, and withdrawl, and relief, and obsession. We are just swapping one addiction for another’. By doing that, Mae Martin (I will use the full name when referring to the creator) connects the love story and Mae’s struggle to stay clean together. Mae Martin challenges the audience to view addiction as not only a struggle among a group of people, but something many of us face when being in a toxic relationship with partners, or, say, social media. By then, I am convinced Feel Good is quite good because the creators know ‘nuances’. Its focus on addiction also reminds me of Killing Eve S2, the key word for its 2nd season is ‘obsession’. While both handle compulsive/toxic feelings between people/people and object, Killing Eve’s take on obsession is disappointing, Feel Good, on the other hand, only gets better episode by episode.

Story aside, I am mesmerized by how the show introduces the love story to the audience. It is fast-paced. As Guardian remarks, ‘Feel Good moves so quickly and lightly that it seems impossible it could also be managing to construct characters and burrow into psyches as deeply and empathically as it does.’ You never need to fast-forward; it’s densely-packed but you won’t feel stressful; the plots mingle effortlessly. It takes 30 seconds for Mae and George to fall in love with each other. I love how unconventional and unapologetic it is. I love how an LGBTQIA (bless Joyce) story focus on how the two lovers enjoy their relationship (at least for the most part) without giving too much attention to how they are unsure if the other is into them, or suffering from loneliness because they can’t find a partner. Of course the loneliness issue exists and there is suffering, but there are many representations of those already. Feel Good shows how the relationship can be the start, rather than the ending, of a story.

I also like how the struggles of Mae and George are more about themselves making choices than them being in disagreement with a suffocating society. It is refreshing to see not only Mae’s parents, but George’s mother, support their sexuality. Mae’s gig pals don’t make a fuss about her having a girlfriend. The roommate Phil is an angel. The lead of the support group is a gay man; Lava is loved by her mother regardless of her sexuality. While Binky’s husband and his friends are ‘piece of shit’, I don’t see them as homophobic (I could be wrong though). The show demonstrates that everyone can and should be nice to LGBT+ community. I like how Feel Good doesn’t use societal approval as a trope; instead, it allows us to see Mae and George as individuals who make their own decisions. Yes, sexuality is and will be important in their lives, but they don’t let it to devour them, they can still breathe.

The relationship is beautifully written and wonderfully performed. I mean THE CHEMISTRY!! Yes there is sex. As Mae Martin said, she didn’t want the lesbian sex to be voyeuristic. I congratulate her in doing a fantastic job!! Feel Good has amazing sex scenes: they are romantic, witty, hilarious, and honest. The director and writers make sure the sex scenes are not about sex/lust only, they are also about female pleasure. Mae and George communicate and share their sexual preferences; they don’t force their fetish on the other, instead, they ask politely. The show doesn’t mystify lesbian sex: even lesbians can’t cum and that’s ok! Feel Good has achieved what Sex Education has done: it has educated people (older than high schoolers) how to have sex, and more importantly, how to discern when the relationship is going south.

There are nudity scenes and they are (quite literally) serving the plot: it is when Mae feels most vulnerable physically. The paradox of the physicality and the personality is, however, not restricted to gay people. Mae is struggling because she believes however hard she tries, she can never have George in the long haul because George is ‘culturally straight’. George, however, insists this idea is just in Mae’s head. (Or is it?) It becomes apparent that the couple is not on the same page on many things. Mae is shy but she wants public validation of their relationship: she wants to be blessed by George’s family and friends. George is popular (win the lottery) but she is ultra private when it comes to Mae. She points out her friends just want to crack a joke and emotions (mind, not sexuality), for them, is gross. Eventually, George will have to face her own real emotions. There is a moment where Mae questions why George never like/retweet her social media stuffs. As Fleabag says ‘Hair is everything’, the (non)usage of social media, I argue, is (almost) everything. This again shows the discrepancy between the couple – which, of course, is normal; in every relationship/friendship, such disagreements happen and that’s what makes this show so relatable.

It is interesting to note that the dynamic between the two flows all the time. I find myself on the side of Mae and then I am on George’s side! For example, the first episode shows Mae concealing her addiction history from George, which is a bit dishonest; but George also makes Mae think she’s already mentioned her to her friends while actually she’s dating some Crenshaw dude. I find it especially interesting that while George is portrayed as a cold person (she leaves Mae alone in a party; she’s rather cold towards Phil etc etc), Mae can also be quite aloof – check what she does to Lava. When she says let’s not share this with Maggie, it is as if George were saying let’s not tell my friends now.

Talking about George and her friends, I really like how the show does about their friendship. It shows that those friendships, even though ‘long haul’, are not necessarily genuine. Indeed, things can be tricky, if not scary, when friends finally choose to be honest with each other, right?

Binky’s husband and friends are hilarious characters, but the show makes sure not all the male characters are caricatured. I like Phil a lot; he’s giving me the neighbor who ended up marrying Hannah’s boyfriend’s sister in Girls, especially when he’s mentioning all the baby stuffs. Mae’s dad is a charming character; but I am not sure if he’s a good dad. His ‘Oh I need to check the garden’ is a specimen of dad type, who leaves all the dirty job of communicating with kids to mums. The show also inserts in a MeToo story plot where things turn sour quickly. In all, the portrayals of male characters are multifaceted. Well done.

Last but not the least: small roles. Does the show even have small roles? Because everyone shines. Even the shop assistant of that sex shop: the scene is so funny and captivating. Lisa Kudrow is funny but in a cold way – which is really nice. I am not crazy about her first appearance in the laptop; seeing her appear in Blackpool is a real surprise for me (and Mae). I love the scene in Ghost Train the most. Arguing in a horror house/moving train, with all the noise and terrifying man-makes while discussing ‘real emotions’, which is the most terrifying of all – what a genius idea!! The fact that the show keeps vague about why Mae is cast out of the family is an interesting one; I quite like how her mother points out her privilege and that she has everything she wants when she grows up. Again, the show is looking at the mysterious and intricate human mind that is not so easily explainable. Apart from that, I don’t think there are a lot of TV shows that discuss ‘privilege’. Kudos to the writers for highlighting this aspect.

The photography is really pretty. It, like TEOTFW, has a consistent tone, which is even reflected when Mae and George are in bed. Note the beautiful blue shadow. The music is nice. The costume looks comfy and lovely (never let the costume steal the show– I’m talking to you, Killing Eve). My favorite, as I said earlier is the pace of narration. Mae has run a lot and it is a signature of Feel Good, like Fleabag’s looking at the camera.

Feel Good is about a female stand-up comedian. In the States, there is The Marvelous Mrs Maisel. Both Mae and Midge suffer from a backfire from they using real-life stories with their partner (judging from S1 finale, haven’t watched S2 yet). It is interesting to think how personal the stand-up mateials can be, but having just watched Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette, I am reminding myself that in order to make things funny, the ‘truth’ can be compromised. While Nanette is almost metafictional when Hannah approaches/disconstructs what makes comedy, I don’t think that is the angle Feel Good is heading towards. However, it is still fit to think about the show amongst the powerful works by Mae Martin’s fellow female comedians. The freshness of the show also reminds me of Girls (with its minute depictions of modern female life) and Fleabag (with its candidacy about real emotions). Feel Good deserves more recognition and PLEASE CAN WE HAVE SEASON 2 THANK YOU NETFLIX!!

现在时间是2020/6/6 凌晨5:20 时间停留在520上 我写完这句话 它变成了5:21

我不清楚大家身边是否有同性恋的朋友，准确来讲，我不知道怎么称呼他们会显得更尊重一些。对于“同性”，我经历了不解到理解，支持再到感同身受。《断背山》让我理解了这样的感情，而《心向快乐》让我感同身受。同性题材的电影也看了一些，比如《霸王别姬》，却怎么也没有《断背山》和《心向快乐》让我更有感触。

幼年的我，无法想象两个大男人在一起是什么样子的，他们如何做爱？2005年李安导演的《断背山》上映，我是在电脑上下载来看的，只是单纯的因为它的名气。我没想到的是，我会看到哭。

《断背山》中关于形婚背后的女人，孩子，家庭占着很大的比重，这些都是为了体现出当时社会对于“同性恋”的态度。即使，会觉得女人可怜，可是更多程度上会把同情心给男主。他们似乎，也确实更为艰难一些。

电影名称断背山，这是全片的主旨，象征所在。Jack在剧中对Ennis说道：我们本可以相伴度过美好的一生，真正的美好人生，有个属于我们自己的家园，但你却不想要，恩尼斯，所以我们只剩下断背山！一切都缘起于断背山，而那确实我们的一切，仅有的一切。

断背山似乎就是他们心中的圣地，在世界上唯一能够做自己，正视自己情感的地方。他们每次的相聚都需要去断背山，而我希望那里都是断背山。任何地方都可以让人们做自己。

在他们最后一次的相聚中，jack说：我们认识将近20年，你拴的我好辛苦...... 当我时隔15年再看它的时候，我才发现真的会发生这样的情况。我们都无法正视自己的情感，在悠悠岁月中，在彼此的生活中进进出出，这样会让脆弱的那一方多么痛苦。最终如同剧中的人物一样，“打架”，“争吵”，“纠缠”再拥抱着痛哭。

电影的最后一刻，出现了jakc的衣服和断背山的照片，随着Ennis悲伤的眼神，好像那一刻就被融化掉了。真正的理解他们，真的替他们感到难过，如果你也掉下了眼泪，说明你真的理解了。

很长一段时间我都喜欢听其中的插曲《IDon'tWantToSayGoodbye》，当真的去了解一件事物的时候，真的就会自然而然的去理解这样的情感。有一位“同志”曾经多次找我聊天，他表明身份的时候，我得去向他解释我是直男。他有一个微信群，我在其中。我真的有“接触”这群人，一起玩王者荣耀，喜欢玩蔡文姬的小受受，挺可爱的。

这些年间，国外彩虹活动，同性立法等等新闻很多。我从开始的理解转变为支持。我和人讨论过关于“同性”的话题，大多人避而不谈或是充满偏见。我表示出，我很支持的时候，他们问我，你儿子如果是同性恋怎么办？我当时犹豫了。原来我的理解，支持，从来没有放在自己身上。我思考了3分钟，告诉他们，如果他是的，我也会支持。我会支持他过自己想要的人生。以上，是我对于“同性”的一段心路历程。而《心向快乐》，让它变成了我的感同身受。

原来爱情，无关性别。不管你是同性恋，还是异性恋，那情感是一样的。

梅·马丁是一个有着吸毒史的脱口秀演员，她有着糟糕的过去，包括现在。乔吉则是一个异性恋。

梅是一个有上瘾型人格的人，精神脆弱，缺乏安全感，任何时候都可能会崩溃。像是待在暗黑的地牢之中，期待着会照进来一道光。而乔吉就是她的这一道光。

在乔吉朋友的生日上，乔吉还是称梅为朋友，这不是第一次隐瞒梅的存在了。之前在一次婚礼上也是。这对于缺乏安全感的梅来说，对于缺乏安全感的我来说，真正的感同身受。你是否爱上一个人，你们在一起，你却从不认识她/他的家人，甚至是朋友？我不如梅，我没有她的自信，我没有勇气面对对方的家人，朋友。如果连我的存在，都不知道，我真的会不知所措。

在生日过后，一次意外，由于吗啡的作用，乔吉出柜了。一个人进入了一个新的领域，乔吉自然也会有着迷茫。两个人因为取向，性别的原因，分手了。

两个人分开之后，乔吉开始明白一些事情。她问自己的那些朋友：我们多久没有谈过正经的话题了？最后说出：“你们算什么朋友？” 然后清楚自己真正的朋友是谁。

而梅则在互助会，拿着1day的牌子，这意味着她又复吸了。彼此不喜欢的两个互助会成员开始了“互助”谈话。

像大多数可以让人暂时麻木自己的东西一样，我们似乎永远停不下来。我们从未想过，我们真正“吸毒”的原因，如果因为某一件事，我们尝试把它做好不就行了。而不是什么都不做，等它变坏，然后再解除“痛苦”。

梅在经历了一切之后，她对着手机那头的母亲说，我想回家。原本有些“生分”，赶她离家的母亲说，现在就给她订票，询问她有去机场的钱吗,给她打钱，现在就让梅的父亲给梅煮汤......

梅问道：你还生不生我气？母亲说，我从未生过你的气。这句话，好熟悉。我母亲好像就曾这样对我说过，你是我孩子，我怎么会生你的气。

结尾的时候，乔吉对梅说，我不知道没了你 我该怎么办。结局是两个人相拥，亲吻，是美好的。我们大多数人在恋爱的时候，都会觉得没了对方，我怎么办？我怎么活？生活毕竟是生活，我们把一切交给时间，而时间确实也做到了，我们也放下了。

《心向快乐》是一部女同题材的英剧，可以让你一口气看完，我 也推荐你利用一个周末，午后，一气呵成。《心向快乐》它关于“瘾”，关于“朋友”，关于“亲人”，关于“爱情”。

我们每个人似乎都或多或少的有瘾。吸烟？看剧？对某一个人的依赖？心理学说，成瘾性人格都存在一定的缺陷。当然，我们都有缺陷。对某个事物越是在乎，就越缺少它。

关于朋友，人总会遇到好多好多的朋友。区分起来可能会简单，谁是能和你讨论正经话题的人。或者一直在你身边，你都未曾发现。

关于亲人，主要就是父母。我想着没什么好谈的，因为做子女的，永远不会知道父母对他的爱到底有多么重。我们可以满不在乎，但是当这个世界开始崩坍瓦解的时候，那个家却永远为你遮风挡雨。

至于爱情，我们分手的原因，我们选择了理性，选择对彼此都好的决定。明明很在乎，却要不断安慰自己。实际上我们只是做了“容易”的选择罢了。

想象一下，对方在深渊里，你是否真的愿意做他/她的一道光。

从《断背山》到《心向快乐》，当有天，它们的标签不再是“同性”，而是“爱情”的时候。人们或许才真正的接受了。此刻，它们是因为爱情，让我感同身受的。谢谢！🥰

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看完了，我一直疑问这竟然标签是喜剧诶，明明很多时候我看的都心碎的说

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当Mae复吸后

剧中梅在经历了女友的分手，一度失落丢失自己，甚至想要再次借助毒品摆脱失意，我深有感触，当生活糟糕的时候就会想忘记一切地放纵，但我们都知道，放纵过后只有无尽的后悔以及未解决的问题罢了，或许我可能应该想想一切的根源，与自己和解才是问题的答案

George诉说当年的伤心事

看到这里真的感同身受，自己所在意的所难受的常常是不为他人所感同身受的，我们失落在朋友无意的嘲笑中，把悲伤放在心里耿耿于怀，除了自己谁也不知道除了自己谁也伤不到，我认为剧中的朋友根本算不上朋友，不过是会耍耍嘴皮逗逗乐的一群派对伙伴，但真正的朋友，即使不懂你的痛也不会随意的戳你的伤疤，而是小心翼翼地保护着你。希望你可以在爱你的人面前褪去伪装。

年少时总是想出去看看，家好像是个束缚自己的地方，但后来遇到了大风大雨第一个想到的还是回家。

梅总是以为母亲不那么爱她，她好像永远在批评她，但其实她只是不把爱放在嘴上，伤心时一句话妈妈就会为你准备好一切等你回家。

多多少少有人迷失在自卑的世界里，我们感觉不到爱，接受不了爱，无法付出爱，什么都不说了跟着台词念一念吧，你是个可爱的人。

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Mae Martin不仅是《Feel Good》的女主，是本片编剧之一，同时自己也确实是一位知名喜剧脱口秀演员。《Feel Good》不仅沿用了Mae的名字，故事也基本上是她现实生活的翻版。

3月19日，Netflix发行了新剧《Feel Good》，豆瓣译名《心向快乐》，但我更喜欢之前的译名《迷醉伦敦》。这是一部甜甜的同性爱情剧，讲述了毒瘾缠身的单口喜剧演员Mae Martin和“直女”女朋友的新恋情。从相识到同居，只需要一集。

Mae Martin: 才华横溢的喜剧脱口秀演员

许多观众都为Mae的魅力所折服，而我看完剧只有一个感觉，导演太会选演员了，要知道单口喜剧并不是那么好演的，而Mae在舞台上自然到让所有人相信她作为一个喜剧脱口秀演员的才华。后来一查资料才知道，Mae Martin不仅是《Feel Good》的女主，是本片编剧之一，同时自己也确实是一位知名喜剧脱口秀演员。《Feel Good》不仅沿用了Mae的名字，故事也基本上是她现实生活的翻版。

和《Feel Good》中的女主角一样，Martin来自加拿大。加入《The Young and the Useless》剧团以后，Mae便开始了自己的喜剧生涯，16岁时便获得Tim Sims Encouragement Fund Award（为鼓励戏剧演员新秀设立的奖项）提名，是该奖项有史以来最年轻的提名人。

在脱口秀演出之余，Martin还是加拿大CBC电视台电视喜剧小品系列《Baroness von Sketch Show》的编剧，并凭借出色的剧本撰写才华获得过2次加拿大银幕奖最佳编剧奖。2011年，Martin移居英国，开始在英国参与一些电视和广播节目。2018年，Martin首次出现在Netflix《全球喜剧人》系列中。

Martin的关键词：性别流动

Martin虽然的确与男性和女性都交往过，但她拒绝被贴上“同性恋”或者“双性恋”的标签，她一直谈论的便是，性别是流动的，性倾向也一样。如果你翻看Mae以往的脱口秀节目，你会发现她和剧中一样，在各种各样的舞台上调侃自己的“年少无知”，自己沉迷毒品的黑暗经历，自己的爱情故事。

在BBC第4频道，Martin有一档专题栏目《Mae Martin's Guide to 21st Century Sexuality》（Mae Martin的21世纪性别指南），专门讨论社会与性别问题。在另一些舞台上，Martin也谈论过“为什么你是同性恋”、“与异性交往”、“生来如此”、“天性还是规训”，这些节目的碎片拼凑起来，便成了我们看到的《Feel Good》。

《迷醉伦敦》为什么这么戳心？

喜剧的内核，是悲剧，《Feel Good》也一样。剧中George在遇到Mae以前都是异性恋，因而难以跟父母和身边的朋友启齿自己有了女朋友的事，而这也成为了两人矛盾的触发点。Mae在自己的节目中吐露心声，说自己不再穿颜色鲜艳的衣服，但更怕George将自己视为男性。

我们都知道，即使是在性少数群体中，也是存在“鄙视链”的，“双性恋”在同性恋群体中其实是非常不受待见的。《Feel Good》所反映的核心在于同性恋的性别认同，可能与大多数人的认知不同，许多同性恋并不认为自己的社会性别与生理性别相反。

尽管取材于Martin的真实人生，George这个角色其实是许多人的集合体。

“搬来英国之后，我和一些女孩约会过，她们中的确有一些从来没有和女生在一起过，我会和她们共同经历这个过程。实际上，这个过程是既辛苦又有趣的，同时很多事情也会给我们带来很多压力。我觉得我能够理解这种动态的变化，我们只想要展示性别流动的事实。她从来没有想过自己会变成这样，但她突然爱上了一个女孩，然后立马感受到了要重新建立自己的身份与认同的压力。其实她并不是必须要去面临这些压力，她只是爱上了一个人而已。她必须要重新去建构自己的性别认同，甚至是自己的世界观。我们真的很希望观众能够感受到剧集中体现的对George的同理心。”

还有第二季吗？

“我是个彻头彻尾的浪漫主义者，我整个20岁的人生似乎都是围绕爱情展开的，所以我想写一个爱情故事。我们想写一个充满难堪但同时也很诚实的现代爱情故事，我希望人们重视感情。关于这些角色，我们想讲的还有很多，我们很乐意拍第二季。”

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